Is it morning yet?

I know it is morning but I'm wishing I was still in bed. My home health aide will be here in about 10 minutes or so and I need to think about what I want to have her do. I know I need laundry and of course the dishes because there are 2 days worth and I can't do them myself today. What else needs to be done? I want to take a shower today as well but I don't know if I'm awake enough for that. I'm still having problems keeping my eyes open and the coffee isn't doing a darn thing to help. I've almost finished one cup and have another waiting for me in the coffee maker. My arms feel like rubber and my head has so many cobwebs in it you could make a silk shirt out of it. Guess that's what I get for smoking a little smoke last night. Yeah that's right I smoked a little last night. It helps with the pain I have and in MA all I'll get is a fine if I'm found with it. I never buy to much, no more than a gram and it lasts me the whole month. That's how much I smoke. Or how little. Up to three hits is all I need but I'll tell you even with that little I still get a crazy case of the munchies. I think I must have eaten just about every piece of junk food in the house. And then some. I know I had at least 4 mini bagels and other stuff I brought home from church yesterday. Today I have to eat some of the fruit I brought home. I don't want it to go to waste.

I have some sewing to do today. I want to get it done but I'm not sure that I will get it done. Most of the time I'm a safety pin type of girl. If I can fix it with a safety pin then it's good to go. The problem with that is I don't have any safety pins. Or at least I'm not sure where they are. If I do any sewing I'm not dragging out the machine, I'll do it by hand. I can do that pretty well. I only have to find needle and thread. That may be a problem as well. I haven't tried to sew anything since I've been down here in the apartment and am not really sure where my sewing stuff is. Even my machine. I imagine it's in the bedroom closet. At least that's where it's supposed to be.

I'm a little worried about one of my good friends. He has been sleeping a lot. Not just 8-10 hours a night but all day as well. I don't know what's going on with him. I don't know what to do about it. I know that realistically there isn't a thing I can do. He will do what he wants to do and I can't stop him from doing it. I just wish he could listen that maybe he has a problem. Now I'm being bossy like my sister in Ohio. I did find out before I went out there that I'm more like her than I thought I was. I didn't know I was that bossy until I started talking about her and my friends told me it sounded like me. I'm trying to stop that behavior. I don't want people to think I'm real bossy. I also don't want to be like my sister and always have a frown on my face. I've been doing my best to smile all day no matter how bad I feel and no matter what bad stuff happens to me. So far it's been a struggle but I'm working on it.

I had read a study that said 100 people were asked to tell the age of some one. First they looked at people who had a neutral look on their faces. Just about all of them guess the peoples age to the year. Then they asked them to look at people who were frowning or showing a mad face and they guessed the ages of the subjects was older. Some of them up to 10 years older. Then they asked them to tell the age of the people who were smiling and guess what? They all said that the people were years younger than their actual age. Again some of them looked up to 10 years younger. So that means I'm going to smile a lot more. I want to look younger than I do. I have been told (despite the fact that I frown sometimes) that I don't look younger than I do anyway so if I can find a way to take more years off I will.

So people out there SMILE.