Well it's over. Christmas I mean and I DID have a good day despite it getting off to a rough start. My friend from Worcester was here and didn't sleep well Christmas eve and we had a little fight that morning but worked out our differences and went on to have a great day. I had my 2 best friends over. One of them lives next door to me and the other was the one that lives in Worcester. Neither one of my kids was able to come over so I just made the best of the hand I was dealt. I plan on having a celebration for me and the boys in June or July around of the 25 of the month. That way I'll be able to see the boys and open presents with them because I didn't get to do it on Christmas day. The youngest one comes early enough in the morning that it will feel like he's getting me up first thing in the morning like he does with his dad on Christmas morning.
I don't really have any traditions that I follow with the kids. I don't get to see them for Thanksgiving and most years I only see the youngest on for a few hours on Christmas Eve day. The older on comes most years in the early evening on Christmas day as he goes to see his adult sisters and has a celebration with them and his niece. I do feel left out of someones life because I'm not close with my sisters that live in this state and the one who lives in OH is so far away. This year she sent me a box with some Christmas presents in it but didn't get it out before and it still hasn't come yet. Maybe tomorrow. I did, however, get a package from her daughter who lives in MD and if I'd checked my mailbox before 4 I would have been able to pick it up and have it for Christmas. However, I had been told that the Post Office wasn't open Christmas Eve day (thanks for the wrong info sis in OH) so I didn't make any effort to get up and check the mail. The slip was there yesterday when my home health aide went to check the mail and she went and picked up the package for me. It's hard for me to get to the post office without a car.
I cooked a full dinner for me and my 2 friends and for the most part it went off without a hitch. The ham I cooked was a litttttttttttle over done around some of the edges because I didn't cover it when I put it in and I may have cooked it a little to long but everyone said it was good. We're still eating it and no one has complained about it. I also made my sweet potato casserole, green bean casserole, stuffing, mashed potatoes, rolls and had cranberry sauce. Don't ask why I made stuffing and had the cranberry sauce other than it sounded like I should have it for a Christmas celebration. I took way to much food on my plate and ended up getting a tummy ache half way through eating it all so I gave up eating and went back and sat on the couch. I ended up doing all the clean up while the 2 guys just sat there and looked at me. I had to beg them to help me finish cooking the meal when my back went out. I asked them to make the stuffing, mashed potatoes and rolls and they made more of a mess than I did making all the rest of the food all together. I found the roll wrapper in pieces on one counter, the boxes for the stuffing on another counter and mashed potatoes all over the stove. I'll never ask either one to help me again without telling them they need to pick up after themselves again. And what the heck is so hard about bending over and looking at the back of the refrigerator shelf to find things when they are told right where they are. Is it all men or just these 2. I must have said 10 times the butter quarters are in the back of the top shelf and they still grabbed the spreadable butter in the container to use in the potatoes and stuffing. I had to get off the couch and get the butter myself. I don't think men really listen to what women say when they tell them where things are. It's just to hard to listen completely to what they say. It was the same with the mixer. I told my friend 5 times where to find the mixer and beaters for it and still had to go into the kitchen and bend over to get the mixer out of the cabinet because he couldn't find it. If it had had teeth it would have bitten him when he looked in the cabinet. It was right in the front. Half the stuff my friend used to cook and make the pie with he didn't have to use he just wanted to make a bigger mess in the kitchen. Also what is with guys and rinsing dishes after you use them as well. NOTHING that these 2 guys used got rinsed off so when I went to clean up there were sticky, caked on dishes everywhere. My kitchen isn't that big and I don't have a lot of counter space and these guys left no room anywhere for anything on the counters. There were dirty dishes from one end of the counter to the other and on both sides of the sink.
Ok. Got that out of my system. I hope that everyone had a great Christmas and has a wonderful New Year.
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Friday, December 21, 2012
Being Sick
I haven't been feeling well this week. I've pushed myself to get out and do things just because I needed to do these things and I was in denial that I was actually sick but there is no denying it now because I'm running a fever. I'm so tired but I can't sleep but I can't sit here and do anything either. I started running the fever last night and am sitting here now alternating between freezing and sweating my butt off. All I really want to do is sleep but I was stupid and took my medicine that keeps me awake and now I can't sleep.
Last Friday I got up with a slight soar throat and a pain in my jaw. I don't have any teeth in the area where it was hurting so I felt under my chin and there was a lump and not a little one, a great big one. I mentioned this to the nurse when she came and had her feel it so she would know what I was talking about and of course she poo-pawed it and I couldn't get in to see my doctor till Tuesday so I had to deal with the pain till then. It was hard to swallow and putting in my bottom dentures hurt as well. My mother came last Friday to stay over and make cookies with the youngest son on Saturday and I had trouble eating dinner and the cookies that I made with them. Eating anything that requires me to have my teeth in hurts and now eating anything at all is just painful.
When I went to the doctor's on Tuesday she told me it was some sort of infection and put me on penicillin for 10 days. It's day 4 and I was hoping that I would feel better but now I'm feeling sicker than I did when I went to see her. She checked me ears and throat and even pressed on my face to see if there may have been a sinus problem but everything was fine. I think there is something infected in a salivary gland and that is what is causing the problem. I will finish out this course of antibiotics and see what happens then. If I still have a lump then I'll go back and demand more tests to find out what the problem is. I'm hoping it's nothing serious but in the back of my mind I worry it's cancer. I worry about that way to much. After losing Dad this past spring to cancer it worries me even more. Being a smoker I worry about mouth cancer, tongue cancer and throat cancer. I don't smoke more than 5 butts a day but not to long ago I was smoking about a pack a day and had been smoking for 40 years plus.
I started smoking at a young age and haven't been able to kick the habit for more than 3 months at a time. I have gotten it down to 5 or less a day and can live with that and so can my doctor at this point. I have tried every stop smoking aide out there and am currently on Chantix which I credit with keeping me at 5 or less. If I go off it between refills then I find myself smoking more. There are days when I crave them all day and no matter what I do to distract myself my mind keeps going back to when I can have a butt. Other days I may not have one till I've been up for most of the day.
So here I sit, running a fever, feeling like crap wondering what I can do to feel better and wishing that today will be over soon. Christmas is 4 days away and all I want to do is sleep through it. I do have plans, my friend from Worcester is coming with his new baby kitty to spend Christmas with me and I may have the oldest son here as well (I don't know what the plan is yet as he has that week off and may want to spend the day with the girlfriend) I don't think I'll see the youngest on Christmas Eve day this year as I'm seeing him tomorrow. Even if I do see him it won't be for his normal time (8 hours) it will be for just a couple of hours. We are going to start a new tradition of having Christmas in June but that's for another post.
Please pray that I'll feel better quickly and this lump in my neck goes away. I don't like being sick and make a lousy patient. I tell people I have no patience for being a patient. I just want to get better.
Last Friday I got up with a slight soar throat and a pain in my jaw. I don't have any teeth in the area where it was hurting so I felt under my chin and there was a lump and not a little one, a great big one. I mentioned this to the nurse when she came and had her feel it so she would know what I was talking about and of course she poo-pawed it and I couldn't get in to see my doctor till Tuesday so I had to deal with the pain till then. It was hard to swallow and putting in my bottom dentures hurt as well. My mother came last Friday to stay over and make cookies with the youngest son on Saturday and I had trouble eating dinner and the cookies that I made with them. Eating anything that requires me to have my teeth in hurts and now eating anything at all is just painful.
When I went to the doctor's on Tuesday she told me it was some sort of infection and put me on penicillin for 10 days. It's day 4 and I was hoping that I would feel better but now I'm feeling sicker than I did when I went to see her. She checked me ears and throat and even pressed on my face to see if there may have been a sinus problem but everything was fine. I think there is something infected in a salivary gland and that is what is causing the problem. I will finish out this course of antibiotics and see what happens then. If I still have a lump then I'll go back and demand more tests to find out what the problem is. I'm hoping it's nothing serious but in the back of my mind I worry it's cancer. I worry about that way to much. After losing Dad this past spring to cancer it worries me even more. Being a smoker I worry about mouth cancer, tongue cancer and throat cancer. I don't smoke more than 5 butts a day but not to long ago I was smoking about a pack a day and had been smoking for 40 years plus.
I started smoking at a young age and haven't been able to kick the habit for more than 3 months at a time. I have gotten it down to 5 or less a day and can live with that and so can my doctor at this point. I have tried every stop smoking aide out there and am currently on Chantix which I credit with keeping me at 5 or less. If I go off it between refills then I find myself smoking more. There are days when I crave them all day and no matter what I do to distract myself my mind keeps going back to when I can have a butt. Other days I may not have one till I've been up for most of the day.
So here I sit, running a fever, feeling like crap wondering what I can do to feel better and wishing that today will be over soon. Christmas is 4 days away and all I want to do is sleep through it. I do have plans, my friend from Worcester is coming with his new baby kitty to spend Christmas with me and I may have the oldest son here as well (I don't know what the plan is yet as he has that week off and may want to spend the day with the girlfriend) I don't think I'll see the youngest on Christmas Eve day this year as I'm seeing him tomorrow. Even if I do see him it won't be for his normal time (8 hours) it will be for just a couple of hours. We are going to start a new tradition of having Christmas in June but that's for another post.
Please pray that I'll feel better quickly and this lump in my neck goes away. I don't like being sick and make a lousy patient. I tell people I have no patience for being a patient. I just want to get better.
Sunday, December 9, 2012
Sunday mornings
It's Sunday and already my day hasn't started out the best. I'm going to make the best of what has happened but unfortunately what happened is going to keep me from going to church. That sucks.
I got woke up 3 times during the night by the phone ringing. I didn't have the phone next to the bed as the one in the living room died yesterday and I brought the one from the bedroom out to use. I didn't get up to see who called as I didn't want to get out of bed. The last call came in just after 6 this morning and I figured it was close enough to the time I usually get up to get out of bed. I found out that call came in from my friend in Worcester. The other two I'm not sure who they were from as Caller ID said they were private callers.
I'm also having a bad Fibromyalgia day. High pain and low energy. The pain level is probably high because of being woke up. I have noticed that the pain gets higher after I have a bad nights sleep. I didn't sleep well last night even with the phone calls. I woke up twice besides the phone calls because I was hot and the side I was sleeping on got very painful. I don't usually roll over in my sleep, I have to wake up to roll to my other side. It's been like that for over 30 years. I think that's because of when I was a truck driver with my first husband and when we slept in the single size sleeper I ended up sleeping on my side against the back wall and had to wake up to roll to my other side. I wasn't able to sleep on my back as my husband took up most of the sleeper. For a little guy he took up a lot of room.
I am still working on drinking my first cup of coffee. I'm drinking it slow this morning. Late this morning I want to get in and take a shower and I'm hoping that I can do that. I'm hoping that the pain won't keep me from doing what I want to do. I also want to work more on my upstairs neighbor's afghan. I have a lot of squares left to make. I want to have it finished by Christmas for him. I'm not sure at this time if I will or not but I'm going to try.
So this is how my morning has gone so far. I have high hopes that today will be better later today. I do need to make breakfast for myself and my oldest son in a little while. He got up and went to the bathroom but I think he went back to sleep. I know he'll want something to eat in a few hours.
I hope everyone out there has a great day. I'll write more some other time.
I got woke up 3 times during the night by the phone ringing. I didn't have the phone next to the bed as the one in the living room died yesterday and I brought the one from the bedroom out to use. I didn't get up to see who called as I didn't want to get out of bed. The last call came in just after 6 this morning and I figured it was close enough to the time I usually get up to get out of bed. I found out that call came in from my friend in Worcester. The other two I'm not sure who they were from as Caller ID said they were private callers.
I'm also having a bad Fibromyalgia day. High pain and low energy. The pain level is probably high because of being woke up. I have noticed that the pain gets higher after I have a bad nights sleep. I didn't sleep well last night even with the phone calls. I woke up twice besides the phone calls because I was hot and the side I was sleeping on got very painful. I don't usually roll over in my sleep, I have to wake up to roll to my other side. It's been like that for over 30 years. I think that's because of when I was a truck driver with my first husband and when we slept in the single size sleeper I ended up sleeping on my side against the back wall and had to wake up to roll to my other side. I wasn't able to sleep on my back as my husband took up most of the sleeper. For a little guy he took up a lot of room.
I am still working on drinking my first cup of coffee. I'm drinking it slow this morning. Late this morning I want to get in and take a shower and I'm hoping that I can do that. I'm hoping that the pain won't keep me from doing what I want to do. I also want to work more on my upstairs neighbor's afghan. I have a lot of squares left to make. I want to have it finished by Christmas for him. I'm not sure at this time if I will or not but I'm going to try.
So this is how my morning has gone so far. I have high hopes that today will be better later today. I do need to make breakfast for myself and my oldest son in a little while. He got up and went to the bathroom but I think he went back to sleep. I know he'll want something to eat in a few hours.
I hope everyone out there has a great day. I'll write more some other time.
Sunday, December 2, 2012
Vertigo
I have vertigo again. This is the second time I've had it in 6 months. And let me tell you it's not fun to have. It's like walking on a tilt-a whirl. I'm bouncing off walls when I walk down the hallway and just generally falling when I'm walking across the floor. It's not an easy thing to do.
I had gotten the coffee table/trunk I ordered on Thursday. Yesterday I decided to put it together. That was a real joy because some of the holes didn't line up and it took forever to get the screws in. I managed to get all but one in and that's pretty good. Now I have something to store the stuff that's under my couch in but it also means now there's something in the middle of the room and having vertigo that's not a good thing to have. I have fallen over it 3 times this morning and believe me hitting a concrete floor isn't fun. Yes there is carpeting on the floor but it's thin and doesn't offer much padding. I'm kind of glad that I do have the concrete under me because with me falling all over the place it' would make one hell of a bang through the floor and if anyone was under me it probably would scare the crap out of them
I lost my cable services for about 5 hours today so I'm just finishing this post now. I haven't been up and about or even gotten dressed today because every time I stand I list to the side. So here on the couch I have sat reading the magazines I got yesterday waiting for this feeling to go away. Last time it was weeks before I felt better and I'm praying this time it won't be as bad. I have medicine I can take that's supposed to make it better but one of the side effects is.....................you guessed it dizziness. That's what I'm trying to get rid of right now. I have to go see my doctor if I can get an appointment with her this week and have my ears checked to see if there's any infection in them. It my only be caused by the air pressure changing or it may be an ear infection that's causing it. No way to find out for sure what it is. I have never had motion sickness when I was on a boat or train or plane so I don't know why I get it on dry land. That's really what vertigo is, motion sickness.
So how do you deal with motion sickness? Pills, patches or what. I would really like to know so I can try something else to get rid of the vertigo. Help me out. Please.
I had gotten the coffee table/trunk I ordered on Thursday. Yesterday I decided to put it together. That was a real joy because some of the holes didn't line up and it took forever to get the screws in. I managed to get all but one in and that's pretty good. Now I have something to store the stuff that's under my couch in but it also means now there's something in the middle of the room and having vertigo that's not a good thing to have. I have fallen over it 3 times this morning and believe me hitting a concrete floor isn't fun. Yes there is carpeting on the floor but it's thin and doesn't offer much padding. I'm kind of glad that I do have the concrete under me because with me falling all over the place it' would make one hell of a bang through the floor and if anyone was under me it probably would scare the crap out of them
I lost my cable services for about 5 hours today so I'm just finishing this post now. I haven't been up and about or even gotten dressed today because every time I stand I list to the side. So here on the couch I have sat reading the magazines I got yesterday waiting for this feeling to go away. Last time it was weeks before I felt better and I'm praying this time it won't be as bad. I have medicine I can take that's supposed to make it better but one of the side effects is.....................you guessed it dizziness. That's what I'm trying to get rid of right now. I have to go see my doctor if I can get an appointment with her this week and have my ears checked to see if there's any infection in them. It my only be caused by the air pressure changing or it may be an ear infection that's causing it. No way to find out for sure what it is. I have never had motion sickness when I was on a boat or train or plane so I don't know why I get it on dry land. That's really what vertigo is, motion sickness.
So how do you deal with motion sickness? Pills, patches or what. I would really like to know so I can try something else to get rid of the vertigo. Help me out. Please.
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