I'm not sure how to start this post. Other than to explain that last night was on of the worst nights sleep I've had in months. I went to bed early because I couldn't keep my eyes open and I didn't have to stay up for any reason. I also set it in my mind since I didn't have anything on my schedule for today I was going to sleep in past my normal wake up time of 6:30 AM. This was going to be a treat to myself but my body had other things in mind.
Let me explain that I have sleep apnea and use a C-PAP machine at night. Most nights I sleep like the dead and wake up still tired but after I get going in the morning I wake up somewhat and can make it through the day some what awake. I take something to help me wake up in the morning and take something in the afternoon to keep me awake. I drink 8 cups of coffee in the morning to help wake me up and I deal with a lot of pain till the morning meds kick in and lower my pain level. I wake up with a pain level of 8-10 and by the time my meds kick in it drops to a 5 or 6. I'm never without some sort of pain and there are days that I sit here and cry.
Last night was different. I went to sleep around 9:15 only to be awoken at 1:15 with terrible stomach pains. Pain so bad I couldn't lay down on my back or side and go back to sleep. This wasn't my normal pain this was caused by the C-PAP pushing air into my stomach and it getting into my intestines. I was doubled over in pain when I went into the bathroom to pee and kept belching air. There was also air so deep inside me that no matter what I did I couldn't get it to pass and that caused more pain. Try running a hot poker through your insides and that won't even come close to the pain I was feeling. So I got up and sat on the couch crying and waiting for the air to pass further through my system so I could go back to sleep. I turned on the TV and tried to forget the pain and watch what I had DVRed. After about 30 minutes the pain had subsided enough and my eyes wouldn't stay open so I crawled back into bed somewhere after 2AM. I fell back to sleep immediately and slept till once again I was woken up with terrible pain. So here I sit at 8:15 in the morning waiting for things to pass though or come up doubled over in pain. I feel it passing through but it's not moving fast enough for me. I feel like crap and there are things I want to get done today but I'm not sure how much I'm going to get done.
Needless to say because of the pain I didn't get the good sleep I wanted and needed because of pain and on top of all the pain from my stomach I still have to deal with my normal wake up pain.
Oh and I forgot to take my morning meds when I first got up and now it's going to be even longer till my normal pain subsides.
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