End of Summer

Well we're into September now. That means the end of Summer. What a depressing time this is starting to be for me. I don't like fall and winter as it gets cold and then there is the snow to deal with. I don't do well with cold weather with my Fibromyalgia and every year I wish I could move to a warmer climate to wait out the winter. I know I'll never have the money or resourses to own or rent a place in the warmer weather in the winter and a place up here for summer so I'm looking into moving somewhere where I have a little family around and it's warm year round. I know that it may end up being real hot in the summer just so it's warm in the winter and if that's the way I have to have it I'll deal with it the best I can. The most important thing is NO SNOW or real cold weather in the cold part of the year. There has to be a place here in the US where it's not to hot in the summer and not to cold in the winter.

I was going to move to Corpus Christy to be near my dad till he died. That broke my heart and here after a year I'm still grieving over his loss. I still want to move to TX as I have family there but not on the coast but inland. I'd like to live on the Gulf but don't know about the humidity that comes with living there. I think I'd do better where it's dryer so that means inland. I have never met most of my cousins face to face. Sure there was that time when I was 24 that I met most of my Aunt Peggy's kids but I don't remember most of them and I don't think they remember me. I was only there for about 3 weeks and didn't spend a lot of time socializing with much of anyone. I did go out to Lake Waco and spend a day on a rubber raft sunburning myself in an over night trip, then spent the next week or so crying because I'd given myself second degree burns over 95% of my body. I mean between my toes, up my nose, my eyelids and in my ears. I had on an itty bitty teney tiny bikini and did it to myself. I decided to coat myself with baby oil and float around the lake on a clear rubber raft. My fault. I knew I burned easy and shouldn't have stayed out there all day but I was avoiding "family". When I got back to my grandmothers and dads place in Waco later the next day all I could do was try and get comfortable and that wasn't easy. Let me tell you I peeled 4 times before I left TX and when I got off the bus in Florida the driver told me what a beautiful Florida tan I had and I told him yeah I got it in TX and walked away. I have never let myself get that burned again. Now I am photosensitive because of some of the medications I take so I don't stay out in the sun for very long. Long enough to get some vitamin D but not much more. I would rather get my sunlight through the windows than actually going out in it.

To get back to TX and family. I wish I knew that side of the family better. I know I have cousins around the same age as me. I have at least one male cousin and a female one who were born around the same time as me. I have become FB friends with them but we don't really talk. We just pass things back and forth on the computer. I have never had a real conversation with any of them. I'd love to get to know them better but don't know how to start. I'm not good at stuff like that. I can ramble on about nothing (as you can tell) for a long time and never let anyone know what I really want to know or tell them anything important.

I think I've rambled enough today so I'm going to end this the way I started. Summer is over and I'm bummed. I am not looking forward to colder weather and all the things that go with it. I don't want to freeze my ass off again in this crappy apartment again this year.