Thanksgiving

Well we are 3 days away from Thanksgiving and I'm still trying to find out if a friend of mine will be coming to share dinner with me. I had invited a few people and got a conformation that one of those people will be coming, so if my other friend doesn't show up that means there will be.........................2 for dinner. I got a 20 lb bird (don't ask me why) so that's a lot of turkey to eat. I actually think I'm going to go get just a turkey breast to make for dinner instead of cooking the big bird. I already printed out the cooking time for it. I just need to make the fixings to go with a smaller bird. I'm cheaping out this year and making frozen pies instead of making them from scratch and making a box stuffing as well.

It's been a little bit since I have written anything and for those of you who might read this I'm sorry. (I know no one does read it, it's more of an online diary than a blog) I have had a few changes in my medications in the past month and a half. One of them is the med I take to stay awake and now it's working instead of me falling asleep after I take it. I am also taking something new for the Fibromyalga as well and that's working better than the last 2 meds I was on for it as well. I thought I might have to go into the hospital to do a med change or to stop some of the meds I take but both of my doctors seem to think I don't need to do that. I am decreasing the mgs of some of the ones I take so I'm not going to feel so drugged up. (at least that's what the plan is) I hate feeling like I'm sleep walking through the day. I also hate that I have to take something to make me feel awake but when you take as many medications as I do it's a side effect that can't be helped. I take 15 pills in the morning, 3 in the early afternoon and 12 at bedtime. That's a lot of stuff to be taking but I have found that I need every pill I take. One of my sisters thinks I take to many medications but she takes just as many as I do AND she takes narcotics which I don't. I took myself off those about a year ago. I found they really didn't work to well anyway. They really didn't take the pain away, they only made it so I didn't really care that I was in pain. That's not anyway to live.

So next is Christmas and I'm not looking forward to that either. I don't do well through the holidays because of the lack of sunlight and would probably like them better if they happened in the summer. Maybe, maybe not. I just don't like spending money on things that I can get any other time of the year. I've been getting the boys gifts and telling them that they are for Christmas so come Christmas day there won't be anything for them to unwrap here. Not that I'm going to see either one of them on Christmas day anyway. Maybe that's why I hate the holidays, because I'm alone on them. Having family around does make them better and when the kids aren't here for them it just makes me sadder.

I hope everyone out there has a great Thanksgiving and a Merry Christmas just in case I don't write before then.